Lent 2017 - Day 10 - Isaiah 12:3 - Draw

"Therefore you will joyously draw water from the springs of salvation." Isaiah 12:3

I respond to this image with yearning, emotion and confusion.  I find it beautiful in a magnetic way.  But what does it mean?

'Joyously' is the only part I understand on the surface.  I picture smiles, enthusiasm and energy.

'Draw water.' When I think of water I think life, refreshing, sustaining. Jesus offers living water so we would never thirst again. If I'm never thirsting, does that means longing is fulfilled? In Matthew, "Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness for they shall see God." I equate thirsting and drawing water with seeing and knowing God.

'Springs of salvation.' Springs to me means a never ending supply that does not run dry. There must be a source for the springs of salvation. Jesus = salvation = living water. Salvation provides for us what we need.  I can't save myself anymore that I can create water.  I go to the source and draw.  I take something to put the water in or I drink right there.  (If I have something to put it in I can share it!)

Joyous! This is life!! There is joy in this walk with Jesus.  Joy in the presence of living water.  Joy in refreshing.

Day 5 - Lent 2017 - Isaiah 9:1 - Joy

"But there will be no gloom for her who was in anguish ... you have increased its joy. They rejoice before you as with joy at the harvest." Isaiah 9:1, 3

This makes me think joy is something You value/desire/like/give. As a Father, you long to see your children rejoicing.  Yet life brings anguish and sorrow, and you don't always remove the source of anguish instantly.  On this earth we suffer, we struggle, we grieve.

Does anguish always end? "There will be no gloom." In a walk with Jesus --- it's not a walk in continual anguish, is it? Does our feeling of anguish dissipate because the source of anguish is resolved, or is it because we are changed in the midst of suffering?

I think of Betsie and Corrie Ten Boom in the concentration camp.  Corrie describes Betsie as walking in joy through anguishing circumstances.  For Betsie they did not change; she died in the midst of them.  Both women were delivered - one straight to heaven where there is no anguish ever, and one to continue to walk the earth with struggle and joy.

You want to teach us true joy.  And it doesn't come from comfort, good times, or temporal pleasure.  True joy is deeper.  It can be experienced in the good times, but we confuse it with just being happy and enjoying life.  Perhaps anguish can purify joy by propelling us into the arms of joy itself. Perhaps joy is not a fleeting emotion but a solid presence.

Genesis 1 Around Me

By grace (because there is no other explanation) I opened my eyes this year.  The ever present iphone, Instagram, and photo a day challenges prodded me to document life around me (or take an obnoxious number of pictures depending on how you look at it.)  While sort, deleting, and filing the year’s photos it dawned on me that in 2013 I walked through the goodness of Genesis 1 in unbelievable ways. I’m awestruck by all that God allowed me to witness.  I am grateful, humbled and overwhelmed all at the same time. I feel like I literally experienced “the heavens declaring the glory of God” in a way I never have before.

Then God said, “Let there be light”; and there was light.  And God saw the light, that it was good; and God divided the light from the darkness. 

 

I soaked in the sound of ocean waves.  I waded every chance I got.  My eyes ached at beauty I could hardly believe I was seeing.

Then God said, “Let the waters under the heavens be gathered together into one place, and let the dry land appear”; and it was so. And God called the dry land Earth, and the gathering together of the waters He called Seas. And God saw that it was good.

 

Even on my most oblivious days or when I’m buried in technology, I’ll notice mountains or the ocean.  I often overlook the little things. The astonishing assortment that sprouts, grows and blooms on the earth illustrates the limitless creativity of our God.

And the earth brought forth grass, the herb that yields seed according to its kind, and the tree that yields fruit, whose seed is in itself according to its kind. And God saw that it was good. 

I saw sunrises and sunsets (well, mostly sunsets) in the desert, the mountains, the city, the hill country and on the beach.  Some of the most spectacular were from a parking lot when I simply stopped and looked up.

Then God made two great lights: the greater light to rule the day, and the lesser light to rule the night. He made the stars also. God set them in the firmament of the heavens to give light on the earth, and to rule over the day and over the night, and to divide the light from the darkness. And God saw that it was good.

Occasionally, I took my Bible and journal outside only to be distracted by the variety of bird songs.  What a different impact than the distraction brought by the chime on my cell phone!  Other unbelievable moments: seeing crabs scamper out of rocks and almost tripping over a monk seal, both highly unusual for this Texas girl. Even ordinary chickens are amusing when wandering through my front yard or down a sidewalk.

Then God said, “Let the waters abound with an abundance of living creatures, and let birds fly above the earth across the face of the firmament of the heavens.”  And God saw that it was good. 

Man, created in the image of God, also creates. This year I delighted in my personal favorites of God’s human creations and the skill, creativity, ingenuity of mankind.  Evidently, I’m especially fascinated by bridges.  Who knew!

Then God said, “Let the earth bring forth the living creature according to its kind…And God saw that it was good.

Then God said, “Let Us make man in Our image … So God created man in His own image; in the image of God He created him; male and female He created them. 

 It was a good, good year.  I'm so incredibly grateful.

Then God saw everything that He had made, and indeed it was very good.

JOY for 2014

Psalm  63:3, 4, 7

Because your lovingkindness is better than life  

my lips will praise You

So I will bless You as long as I live;

I will lift up my hands in Your name.

For You have been my help,

and in the shadow of Your wings

I sing for JOY.   

This year I had a word pressed upon my heart before I had verse.  The word is JOY.  I’ve been convicted that I’m not a particularly joyful person.  Specifically, when considering whether the example of my faith in Christ would encourage my children towards a relationship with God I had to conclude that no, it would not.  I don’t think they see any joy related to my faith.  Sure they see me laugh at family silliness and enjoy a movie or time with friends, but when turbulence hits I grumble just like the world does.  (Well, minus the cursing.)

I don’t see scripture making allowances for grumpiness, but I’ve been making MANY allowances for myself.  I can’t continue to call myself a disciple without addressing this area.  First some clarification of what I mean by joy. 

1. 1.       Joy is a choice.  Really my word of the year is two words: CHOOSE JOY.  Joy is not something that happens to me occasionally or something that falls upon me.  Joy is a response that I have complete control over.  Circumstances do not dictate my joy;  I determine my joy.
2. 2.       Joy is action oriented.  I tend to think of joy as a feeling, thus when I respond to situations based on how I feel, joy is usually missing. When I researched the word joy/joyful/rejoice in Psalm 63, the Hebrew words used refer to a joyful voice, singing, triumphing, shouting, crying out.  Expressing joy this way is an act of my will that can be completely separated from how I feel in the moment.  I see this ‘will’ reflect in the Psalm – “my lips WILL praise you,” “I WILL bless you,” “I WILL lift up my hands,” and “I (WILL) sing for joy,” where the will is implied.  (One of the other Hebrew words for joy comes from a word meaning ‘to spin round.’ I suspect choosing to spin round singing praises on a regular basis would change my life.)
3. 3.       Choosing joy is choosing to trust.  Verse 3 starts with “because your lovingkindness is better than life my lips will praise You.” When I choose joy I am saying, “I don’t see it right now, but I believe Your lovingkindness is better than life.  I believe You are good.  I trust there is something greater going on that I am missing.”

Joy in the face of tragedy and sorrow is a topic for a much longer discussion.  Right now I’m focused on joy in the face of kids who have left a mess, long check-out lines leading to late appointments, traffic jams, careless words tossed out by a friend or spouse, filthy kitchen floors,  and people that fail you.  This is daily life for me and historically I choose grumpiness!  I choose a silent anger hoping it will convey my displeasure.  I choose sharp, sarcastic comments.

By the calendar I’m been a disciple of Jesus for over 30 years.  Currently I think I’m a pretty crummy disciple.  Jesus urged “take up your cross and follow me,” but I’m not even willing to let go of minor offenses that fill daily life.  I can glibly state I will choose joy, but when I’m hurt, angry, frustrated, disappointed or overwhelmed, will I?  On my own strength, no.  No chance.  By submitting, repenting, and depending on the grace of Christ I can. 

I have yet to be tested, and something tells me it won’t be pretty.  My grumpy habits are pretty ingrained.  But Paul exhorts that “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”  Who knew that the toughest thing of all would be a simple choice.  To choose joy.